strawberries

2007-11-05T23:15:00.000+08:00

Gosh, I've been so super busy lately. I'm simply exhausted. Do this do that, plus my house is SUPER messy again and I'm absolutely annoyed by it.
I was sick last night, yet i cleaned the house to make it neat and tidy, and when those people came back, they messed it up again. It's very much appreciated.

Oh anws, updates on my weekend.
Friday - Sentosa with Melvin. (i really dont like being at the beach when I'm not swimming) yeah was quite alright other than the sand. dinner-ed at tiong and cabbed to Tampines. I was listening to Savage Garden in the cab and I realised how nice his voice is (damn, im slow)

Saturday - House party. shall update in my Lj. (since its not for everyone to see) and I honestly dont remember much, and neither do I want to.

Sunday - which was yesterday. Still wasn't feeling so well. Melvin and Rashvin came over. Watched plenty of TV. and they left at night. Mommy/Papa came back at 11plus. It's annoying how she started nagging as soon as she got back. & as usual my mood was horrible. I shall let your imagination figure out what happened. Knocked out by 12.

Today - Skipped Chem though I regret now. Emaths got cancelled. Amaths was slackkkkkkk cos PennyAng was running around trying to work the wireless which totally un-neccessary. oh yeah, the kid is here. and she's an absolute darling (except for her itchy hands which have to touch everything) they are gonna call her Amaiya (or whatever the spelling is). so it Amaiya Sahota.

I'm so sleepy now. Feel like such a pig. L-A-Z-Y. but I really got no mood to do anything right now. or whenever. have this horrible headache which is driving me up the wall. and there's school tmr. damnit.

2007-11-01T23:44:00.000+08:00

I'm supposed to be sleeping right now, but im just not sleepy yet.
it still hasnt sank it yet that mommy's leaving tmr.
and there's school!
damnit
im honestly really pissed now.
ive screamed at mommy, ive screamed at kirandeep and ive screamed at myself.
(all in this horrible voice cos my throat hurts real bad)
dianatang tmr, im not so horrified
leejianwei tmr, im dreading it
limsuatfong(i think) tmr, its gonna be okay i guess
pennyang tmr, im gonna get a headache.

on a lighter note
i created an lj
i got bored of blogger.
but im so lazy to switch.

100crunches a day isnt helping.
im still as fat as ever.
damnit
maybe i should cut down on eating
(i might even save some money)
which reminds me how bloody broke i am
its scary

i think i should go sleep since ive got to wake up earlyyyyyy. i so dont wanna go to school (mainly cos ive got to wake up) but at least its a distraction.
and i get to spend time with the lovelies!

2007-10-31T18:36:00.000+08:00

I stayed home today.
was supposed to go to Melvin's school but mommy didnt allow me to go out.
so he came over instead.
lunch-ed at Bukit Merah KFC
and then he came over.
(i think hes very amused with the messy house)
and i cant believe he doesnt eat cookies! (the one mommy makes)
after like an hour plusplus kiran came back home.
and they both ganged up on me!
no fairrrrrrr.
stupid dumbdumbs were tickling me and i was suffering so much and they can still laugh, walao!
oh and melvin piggybacked me and made me open the door for kiran while i was on his shoulder. damn pain lahhhhh
showed him our baby photos! hahahaha, im the cutest baby alive k!
both sisters walked him to the station and here i am.

Monday and Tuesday was school.
BORINGGGGGGG
like really lah. i was dying during english.
it was like torture. even worse than tuition.

SUNDAY!
rushed home from elle's place. ok didnt rush but still
got back and quickly got ready to meet melvin at outram
headed to vivo and had lunch (i was starvingggggg cos the dumbdumb couldnt get ready on time)
after that walked around and went into TOYS 'R US (or however you spell it)
HAPPY HALLOWEEEEEN!

Sorry couldnt resist wearing the hat.
played around abit with the toys.
elle called and told us they were going el shiekh (i always dont know how to spell it)
we were late though (SORRY!)
and went to meet Jit at his workplace.
and what happened there, you wouldnt wanna know.
got back abit late though. sorry mommy.
Tararumpum at night

Saturday saturday saturday! was Malvein's birthday chalet thingyyy at East Coast.
reached there around 6?
Melvin was there DJ-ing. he wanted to "surprise" me.
unfortunately, he and kiran are bad surprisers. i figured he was going to be there days before. MWAHAHAHA
saw esha after soooooo long!
took many many pictures, but they are with esha! have to wait for her to send it.
didnt stay the night though, went back to elle's place.
This was at the Starbucks at Holland V. Melvin just loved my face too much he had to take a picture.

(as usual, looking at my phone)

2007-10-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

swensens yesterday! with ruby and harmin!
i was exhausted
but it was fun nonetheless

im quite lazy to elaborate. hehe

queensway today, with melvin and kirandeep
saw sarah and tasneem!
got me thinking how much i missed sarah :/
bought kirandeep's lenses and headed to hollandv for icecream
butterscotch with crunchie mix
YUMMAYYYYYY
met debbie, vivien, samantha and michelle there (i tell you its fate)

starbucks (didnt buy anything though, haha)
masada came so i left with melvin to go home.

and now im bored.
jhalak dikhlaja on tv now, but im quite bored of it ready.
too much drama.

the weather is killing me.
its so hot
:/

I think twice nowadays before saying
I love you
and I miss you.

OHOHOH
the other day, i was being rather dumb and so my packet drink straw managed to cut my lip
and now theres an ulcer there
so damn painnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! help me lah!

jhalak diklaja song on tv! hehehehe i love the song! (ok random)

ohhh yah that day at thai express (which reminds me i need to stop going out and spending so much money. swensens then gelare then thai express then swensens then icecream, all in one week, thats abit too much!)
yah ok at thai express, this preena was saying the dumbest things
there was this thing on the receipt thing that said "SCB"
preena claims that SCB stands for Super Chee-Bye
HAHA its damn funny can
then she said it damn loud and i think everyone could hear.
and she kept going on and on about what can be found in there.
go figure

2007-10-23T22:30:00.000+08:00

It's 10.31PM
surviving on 5hours of sleep here. and im not even sleepy.
not very surprised.
it's official, im going crazy.

i hate how im always getting screamed at for something i was forced to do.

Im sick.
Im sick of losing everyone i love
Im sick of being the one at fault every time
Im sick of making stupid mistakes
Im sick of reminding myself ive got to hold on
Im sick of being nice
Im sick of smiling at you every single time even though you dont smile back
Im sick of telling myself im okay
Im sick of disappointing everyone
Im sick of not being the perfect sister
Im sick of not being the perfect daughter
Im sick of not being the perfect friend
Im sick of how much I love you
Im sick of not being able to show you how much your actions hurt me
Im sick of drifting away
Im sick of how much I mean to you
Im sick of how many friends ive got left
Im sick of what ive become
Im sick of not getting what I want
Im sick of not being the person you want me to be
Im sick of weak I am
Im sick of my lies
Im sick of trying to forget you
Im sick of remembering how things were like
Im sick of regret
Im sick of not being good enough
Im sick of hurting everyone around
Im sick of my big mouth
Im sick of my stupidity
Im sick of my rudeness
Im sick of how much you mean to me
Im sick of trying to be strong all the time
Im sick of pretending
I'm just sick of it all ok.

2007-10-21T00:54:00.000+08:00

Punjabi; 70%
L1R5 now 22

not bad teran, not bad. I'm impressed.

Honestly, I don't know what's up with me lately.
I can't remember stuff (like i really can't)
My moods are beyond predictable
I can't seem to concentrate on anything
I'm suddenly all quiet
I'm tired most of the time
I lose my cool over the simplest things
and I'm losing them one by one.

Sincerely sorry to those whom I've offended due to my weird moods yeah?

The surprises I've been getting are just overwhelming.
I feel like I'm on drugs, like really.
Considering how I can't seem to remember much.
Teranjit, teranjit, What is happening to you?

2007-10-18T23:52:00.000+08:00

Results are back.
I can't say I'm glad. neither can I say I'm covered with tears.
It was a surprise, I admit.
I was disappointed, real bad.
Studied, studied, studied.
Didn't pay off did it.

English; 60.1%
Chemistry; 53%
Emaths; 53%
Amaths; 58%
Biology; 61%
Combined Humans; 59%
Geography; 71%
L1R5 26points.

*punjabi not counted/havent gotten back results yet.

I deproved from CTs
But then again, it was CTs.
congrats teran, you made it to Sec4

I doubt I will be going school tomorrow.
meeting babe instead.
I really hope it goes okay.
I've got this weird feeling about it.
(i always do though)

Lessons are gonna start soon
I'm in no mood for studying
and I received the wonderful news that ive got lessons the first week of the holidays.
What a nice thing to hear, don't you think?

My mood has been off since like a few days back.
I'm supposed to be smiling.
:D :D :D
yeah kinda like that.
"Fake" smiles (is there even such a thing?) dont cut it anymore
I'm done being oh so nice about it.

and hey, I'm not the only one who thinks so yeah.
Even though I hate her guts for what she's doing, i have to agree.
It's either I haven't kept up, Or you're not the same.
Either way it sucks.

2007-10-14T21:40:00.000+08:00

dangg, its been long since i last posted.
sorry yeah, ive been busy.

*these past few days, nothing seems to be staying in my head. so i cant really remember much

was working on monday and tuesday.
giving out flyers. or rather magazines.
was quite ok.
50bucks a day
and i havent gotten my cheque yet.
maybe they are cheating me of my money !!!

swensens on wednesday.
town-ed abit.
miss that place manzxzxzxzx.

school started after.
thursday sucked, totally. i was so pissed
it was a TOTAL waste of time.
friday was better than expected.
inter-house games was quite fun
other than the fact that i got tan-er
went thru bio paper (though i still dont know my marks!)

after school on friday, went for the shooting thingyy
was uhm, an experience yeah.
marina square for dinner afters.
stayed over elle's place

went for some hari raya dinner ytd.
b-o-r-i-n-g.
waste of time.
literally.

pasir ris today.
sajjyn is the cutest! (other than me of course)
the stupid cats got me sick.
ive been sneezing since just now.
dangggg

on the way home today, i was listening to this certain song.
it reminded me of last year.
the same loneliness
the same hurt
the same betrayal
the same helplessness
the same longing
the same emptyness
the same tears
all that the moment i heard the song.
i realised, i cant erase last year.
no matter how hard i try
its always gonna be there
and so are you

i dont get why you still contact me
you claim im a bitch
leave me alone.
i beg you

2007-10-07T23:39:00.000+08:00

MIA-ed for so longggg!
it was the exams i tell you
studied like crazy for like million million days.

my mood has been UP down UP down these past few days.
esp today and yesterday

well exams was alright
Social Studies, sbq totally sucked. i blanked out, seq was alright, wrote quite alot, just dont know if it made sense.
Emaths, i screwed it up. didnt do like half the paper.
History, i dont expect to do well, seeing how i didnt study. seq i managed to finish one at least. sbq was screwed.
Bio, was better than expected. and i hope to pass it. im counting on bio!
Geog, i was so disappointed in myself. its my best subject and i totally blanked. doubt i will even get a E8. i really messed up
Amaths, was MUCH better than expected. i at least managed to finish a few questions.
Chemisty, was as expected. didnt study, so dont expect a pass.
lets hope for the best yeah?

after chem paper was Sec4 Farewell Assembly.
it was so sad. and i kept thinking of _______
stupid teran.

went straight home after farewell assembly and cleared my room abit.
i was so tired and cranky, i decided to sleep for like half an hour.
but only managed to sleep for 15minutes cos had to go meet that dumb dumb.
he was late lah! (ok not surpised, but !!!)
yada yada yada.
vivo was fun lah huh.
and totally worth remembering.

saturday!
cafe del mar = beach bar and bikini babes!
there was this super hot guy in the poooool
danggggg
but the weather was killing me. seriously.
my mood went totally off cos i was dead tired.
mount faber was funny though
saw a couple in a car, doing uhmmmmm.....
lets see, making out, fingering and even a blowjob.
hmmm, mount faber eh.

today was coffeeclub at marina.
according to elle it was sinful, seeing how much chocolate we were having.
hehhhh

no school tmr.
im bored.

2007-09-30T19:40:00.000+08:00

i dont know how to tell you, really.

been reflecting alot today.
i thought about
how when i was in the hospital and i was crying
cos it hurt so bad
and mommy cried along with me
and i stopped crying cos i didnt want to see her cry.

and i thought about
how mommy bought us the bags yesterday

and i thought about
how kirandeep is always so nice to me
but she can really be a bitch
and im trying my hardest to be nice to her
even though she really pushes it

and i thought about
how good things were last year
we were this oh so happy clique
and now we're so broken.
we hardly talk
maybe those half smiles here and there
i want those times back.

and i thought about
how my actions made it this way
if i didnt do this; it wouldnt have happened
if i did this; it wouldnt have happened
and i wondered, what if?
so i figured, everything happens for a reason.

i should be studying.
really.
but today, i give up
im at a loss as to what to do.
i cant put my finger on to what
neither do i want to
i dont know
i dont know
i dont know
maybe i just dont want to answer the question

maybe all that is needed is a break
a trip to the beach?
a walk on the sand? playing with the water?
running around like an idiot?
sitting down and just listening to sea?
feeling the peace and serenity around?
sitting by the pavement, looking at the cars going by?
standing with arms out, feeling the wind around me?
maybe all i want is

and for once, to be alone.

where's the teran i know?
so much has happened this year.
its scary to think how someone can change so much.

but yet all this petty little things
are nothing
nothing compared to everyone else.

really gotta stop over-reacting.

2007-09-29T22:42:00.000+08:00

you are all that I have;

MIA-ed!
tehehehehehehehehe
i havent been using the computer/tablet long everyday
so proud of myself

study "date" on thursday
with the clowns, rash, melvin, kiran
me and kiran were the ones trying to study
while the other two were there to distract us
was alright though
a break at least.

ive been studying like crazy these past few days
and i really hope it pays off
it will it will

on a lighter note,
mommy bought me a guess bag
as childrens day present
so sweet right
i love you mommy

im sorry babe,
but i cant give it away just like that, again.

2007-09-25T21:43:00.000+08:00

MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODY
i use up all my happy energy in school
so by the time i get home, im like a monster
really need to stop

NO MASS RUN TODAY!!!
yay yay yay,
i love to run, but i hate mass run.
haha im weird.

p.e. was fun!
we played hockey!!!
yayyyy
and the sun was super hot and i was running around like an idiot
which was gooooood
EXERCISE!
felt so nice after PE
didnt have recess, really didnt feel like eating.
english was fighting with tyh.
hes so mean lah. ughhh
cme test is so screwed.
if i fail, im such a bad person
HEHHHHH

today tasneem told me a very amusing thing. (act only i find it amusing)
"eh white bra, im proud of you teran"
"oh, hahahahahaha"
"new one right?"
"yah"
"yeewen's influence right?"
"hahahah yeap"
"im proud of you teran"
hahahahah i think its funny
oh and its not very accurate cos i forgot what exactly she said. heh
its funnyyyyyyyyy

oh and my grandma did the funniesh thing today
she told me to stand on her (like massage lah) haha
then i was like, NOOOOOO im very heavy, i use one leg only
then she fight fight with me
then when i use one leg she tell me im very heavy
and then i said im 15 already what
then she say, oh i thought you still small
(this conversation was in punjabi btw)
hehhhhhhh funny

2007-09-24T22:03:00.000+08:00

tired!
forced myself to stay awake in the afternoon

im so pissed lately
sorry to whomever ive screamed at/vented my anger on/got pissed at/annoyed
its the stress
really
either that, or im getting more irritable by the day
its not fun for me either
things havent been easy
and you really dont seem to get it anymore
priorities change huh?
life sucks like that

im glad i did

2007-09-23T23:30:00.001+08:00

its 1130pm
and cranky + pissed + annoyed = teran
i want to sleep
but i think i need to blog first
so im gonna make this a quickie

today was uhm, different and unexpected.
woke up at 1
cos i slept at 430 (msn-ing!!!)
they were all debating whether i should go out with them at night or not
at 645 kiran told me,
quickly get ready, they are coming at 7
i was like ?!?!?!??!?!!?
but i managed to of course
we were like 5 - 10 minutes late but its alright (:
went east coast gelato for ice cream
cookies and cream!
and some bitch called (shall elaborate later)
and yeah blahblahblah

mount fabor later
and uhm, really unexpected.
im not surprised, just confused. but im gonna do what i promised.

ok, that bitch,
im rather annoyed now since she called a second time.
i mean, the first time i found it amusing, the second time it wasnt so funny anymore.
firstly bitch, im not a slut, so you dont have to call me that.
secondly, i havent seen him in like a month or something, and ure saying what?
god, u are the bloody shallow swine
so honestly, if you think i slept with him, go ahead.
i really dont care what you think.
u'd just be making ureself miserable (Since thats the way u sounded)
and stupid.
cos if u know me, ud know my beliefs about sex, thankyouverymuch.

i wanted to tell you so badly,
looks like i've got to wait.

2007-09-22T20:12:00.000+08:00

punjabi exam todayy
let's see if i can get my a1 lah huh.
and i heard its counted! YAY!

today has been horrible.
seriously
im so very pissed(for no reason whatsoever)
its the thirddayinarow that ive been crying.
this is bad!

vivocity/harbourfront today
with the lovelies!
(kiran elle melvin)
kiran had t buy rashvin's watch.
b&j's after
was yummayyyy
but i was totally quiet and my mood was ): then (: then D:<>
you get my point?

i studied bio in my half dead state
no idea whether anything went in or not
i have half a mind to go and sleep while studying later.
ive done 2 chapters today
and so 3 more to go
wish me luck

my phone is on the floor somewhere due to my uncontrollable frustration and annoyance
im too lazy to go find it anyways.
so teran shall be MIA until i feel like taking it back

i had a very bad thought just now
but i kinda forgot what it was
danngg

i really dont understand you
stop confusing me will you?

2007-09-21T18:42:00.000+08:00

english paper todayyyyyyy
fucking stressed
that i slept at 2 last night
and woke up a million times
thankgod it was possible for me to wake up in the morningg

the paper was alright
except for the bloody summary
wanted to tear the paper into a small small tiny pieces can
but im glad its over
1 down, 8 to go.

history lect was quite productive and interesting.
actually paid attention (btw, i just spelt paid as payed, haha loser)
hitler is a bitch lah ok. (so much for the Greater Germany, mwahahahaha)
but hes so funnnnnyyyy. hehhh

on my way home today, i decided to walk
cos the weather was awesome
the sun was super nice
like when it hits your face (like when you go tanning!)
it wasnt the hot sweaty hot
it was the hot nice hot
:D

and on my way home!
i saw the boat in the canal again
HAHAHAHAHA so funny can
boat in the canal
and it went like under me
and i looked to the other end of the canal
and i couldnt see it
the canal was like under the road, under the grass all
that means the boat would be underground for a really long time
so scary
hehhh

OOZE TOOBZ! thankyou melvinnnn!

today was the last day of my tuitionnnnnnnnn (for this year)
but im overjoyed!
my fridays are finally free for this year
OMG, only next week i will be stuck at home on a friday.
the rest, YAY!
omg omg omg omg omg omg omg! hehhhhhhhhh

i really dont like what you did
wtvr lah ok, be petty
i dont care.

thankyou

2007-09-19T22:51:00.000+08:00

/edit
oh c'mon, get a life
ure like so last year
and pretend ure all that
reality check bitch

/edit

smiling to myself
random moments, on the way home, studying, everywhere
(with the exception of today, i was plain irritated)
oh yah! today was horrible,
i nearly broke the trafficlight and lift button
due to my uncontrollable frustration
danggg

ayee, stress can
STRESSSSSS
tmr tmr tmr, i want to die alr cannnnnn
im so scared!
nvm nvm, I WILL DO WELL
IT WILL BE EASY
I CAN PROMOTE BECAUSE I WILL PASS ENGLISH

anws, teran is happy kid,
for some reason :D
like i said, ive been smiling like some idiot.
even kiran noticed. heh

ive got the pictures already, from cafe del mar. but i think i look horrible in most. :P still, i shall be nice and upload

(look at that idiot)

(happy only lah, stupid fella)

(elle kaurrrrr and kiran)

im still scared

2007-09-16T19:06:00.000+08:00

its 0707. heh, random

flu + fever = dying teran

sucks ok.

im so pissed.

(melvin rashvin kiran elle taz saranpal harvin alafiyah)

cafe del mar last night.

palawan too

was fun

i miss it, terribly.

dangg.

pictures pictures!

(me in cafe del mar toilet. heh)

(at the beach chairs thingy at palawan. we were lying down. heh, if you can actually see whats in the picture. heh)

more pictures when they send it to me!

2007-09-15T15:40:00.000+08:00

oh yay, great news, i hate you.

headache lah headache.
stupid

sentosa later.
dont really feel like going.
need to get ready all,
ughh lechey.

school was rather boring
so we played stupid stupid OLD games to keep ourselves entertained.
teeheeheeeeeeeeeee, and i couldnt wait for recess.
cos i was feeling like a pig.

i want swensens!
and i need sleep

alright, the beeeeeeeembo going to sleep.
i miss you, but then again, its scary

2007-09-15T00:12:00.000+08:00

i'm an angsty kid.
please, do not be surprised/shocked/amused at my sudden outbursts.
all that anger, hurt and disgust has been building.
slowly, but surely.
one day, (though i seriously do not wish for it), i will break.
and its not going to be nice.
what i think, what i feel.
its horrible.
it's not going to be a pretty sight if someone figures out what goes on in there.
you may be a friend,
but its not right.
you blame me.
oh right, of course you do.
since its always teran's fault.
gosh i hate your doublestandards.

honestly,
ive got to forget it all
and i wish, i wish you get what you deserve.
whatever you did, i wish, they will come back to you.
and when that happens, trust me, i'll be the happiest i've ever been.
all that i feel for you now, is disgust.

you can't love two people at one time.
stop contradicting yourself.

you dont make out with others if you still love your ex.
that just makes you cheap.

2007-09-14T22:34:00.000+08:00

next week will be the last tuition for this year!
IM SO EXCITED
hehehehehehehe

history was spent doing tuition homework.
the teacher is damn AHNOYING.
she talks to the front row. i bet the only the front row will pass history this year.
chem was funnnnn
playing some dumb dumb game with tas, diy, sha and kalyn. :D

and today is a waste of time.

im supposed to be studyinggggg
was trying to make a study plan today.
obviously didnt succeed.
besides, i wont even follow. TEEEEEHEEEEEEEHEEEEEE
i miss study date.

Hate happens when the ones you love the most hurt you.
you suck.
haha ok, loser.

2007-09-13T18:22:00.000+08:00

i am very very very very very irritable and angsty today.
thankgod lessons were slack and the teachers didnt care
otherwise i wud have been sent out of the class with the way i was behaving.
sorry yeewen, but that bastard got me so annoyed with everyone.

im so into emo/romantic songs these few days.
(:
nothing to be so smiley about, but they are sooooo nice. hehe

school was alright today,
slept during chinese, bio was good since ms lim was in a gooooood mooooooood. heh. recess with yw and kalyn, cme was free, ss was well boring but yeah. i yawned so loudly during class and got caught. haha. plus i was so blurrrr. english was a waste of time. since we were playing bingo and hangman.
after school, was trying to persuade that ex-co t follow me tanglin macs, but she refused !!!
but vivian samantha leyi shijia (unknown person) and me went tiong ljs. :D
hehhehhehheh.
made it back in time for ld,
mr m was lecturing away.
blahblahblah...then sarah's nice nice mommy sent me to the mrt station
waited for tasneem to finish her phonecall and so i bought bubbleteaaa

and so now im here, and totally bored.
:/
i miss going out !!!
i detest being grounded. ://///

emo songssssssss

2007-09-12T16:49:00.001+08:00

sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy
but i dont wanna go and sleep.
supposed to study at like 5
have only 11 minutes to blog.
ok 10.

yesterday yesterday yesterday.
i was tired beyond tired.
slept at 130 so had like 5 hours of sleep.
so total of 9 hours for 2 days, sucks.
school was alright though.
went for the "I'm a Winner" workshop.
oh wow, i feel like such a winner now. :/
got home and studied! haha, i cant believe it either
its prolly cos i was pissed and sulked. heh, so decided to study (so i wont look so loser)
after studying, had dinner, and then did emaths, used tablet for awhile and went to sleep.
i slept at 10.
CAN YOU BELIEVE?!
cos i cant.
im shocked ok. shocked.

anws anws anws, today.
was alright.
the day passed by quiet fast.
and had emaths AGAIN after school.
so its like 2 hours of dianatang. D:< !!!
7more minutes to studyyyy,
and im super sleeeep. danggg.
my lip is swollen.
i have no idea why
theres this ugly thing there.
whats going on!!!!!
ok-dont overreact.
oh and

happy birthday sanam.

2007-09-10T23:03:00.000+08:00

my hatred for you is seriously reaching its maximum
*okok im not supposed to hate
*chill teran chill
*ah fuck it lah, i cant be bothered anymore

im sorry alright,
it was wrong i know, i shouldnt have
sorry?
i didnt mean to
i was just tired, and you were pissing me off
sorry.

i was supposed to study today
i didnt
fuck lah
nvm, i shall just read thru abit of bio before i go to sleep.
byebye, goodnight, i hate you and sorry

2007-09-09T20:52:00.001+08:00

it's just a month
i can live with a month
at the rate im going, its gonna be easy
one month
ONE MONTH
ONE MONTH

oh help.

today was a total waste of time i tell you.
its getting on my nerves.
im supposed to be like studying, and my holidays haveNT been spent wisely.
someone slap me!

on the bright side,
nah, i wont tell you.

2007-09-08T23:53:00.000+08:00

oh right, i forgot to add
today's the 8th of september.
its been a year since ive known you.
ure not the same
im not the same
we're not the same.

i miss us.
(the us when we were happy)
though im happier now, i was happier, when i was happy with you.

but thinking about what ive been thru
what im going thru
its hard.
and you confuse me so much, really
sometimes you tell me you dont, sometimes you do.
make up ure mind?

i always thought i didnt.
that ive moved on
but today, i realised i havent.
uhhhh, so sucks.

2007-09-08T21:20:00.000+08:00

it's 920 on a saturday night.
and im at home
:/
i really need to get a social life.

yesterday was alright
other than the fact i was real busy the whole day while down with the flu
1. went to mommy's work
2. went to preena's house
3. went back home
4. had tuition
5. went to the salon
6. went to the shop
7. got ready
8. went khalsa (place was bloody crowded)
9. went home
= dead tired.

i dont want school to start!

you give me hope

2007-09-06T18:02:00.000+08:00

Love everyone around you.
you'd make yourself and them, happy.

Trust does not come easy, esp when it's lost.
but that doesn't mean you should stop trusting.
carry on, and hope for the best.

Forgive whatever that has happened.
carrying it with you, will only spoil the future.

Don't take yourself too seriously
no one else does.

No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

What other people think of you is none of your business. (im gonna need some adjusting for this)

Time heals almost everything.
give time, time.

Study date today was QUITE productive. heh
though i zoned out after a while
and was practically stoning most of the time.
but it was alright (:

Im going to miss you :/

2007-09-06T00:03:00.000+08:00

so my blog is private now.
it hasnt been since a really long time :/
hmmm,

i was about to say;
"im so pissed"
when i realised, being pissed is wrong
I'm strong, and I can survive and be happy, without you and you and you.
whatever you said last night, DID have an effect on me.
but i guess you were just trying to make yourself feel better by making me miserable.
guess what darling, im happy with my life too. (:

today was great.
at first it was abit draggy (esp after the world war plus phonecall)
but the cute guy working there totally made up for it.
he had such a sexy accent. plus, he looked so much like diego luna (!!!)

the two brothers came after, with an UNINVITED guest. (kiran heard the car from far, and blew kisses to them, and the cute guy thought she was blowing to him. HEH, was funnehhhh)
and the cute guy was totally flirting (!!!!!!) so clear-cut
when the guys came i told elle "he's not gonna talk to us anymore" true enough. :/
but he did, later later later on. TEEEEEEEEE. hes damn cute
i think we should go to El Sheik more often.
girls ONLY!

but yeah, today was fun.
they totally cheered me up.
too bad they're going to malaysia tmr.

2007-09-05T13:48:00.000+08:00

i just painted my nails!
but i think they are rather ugly though.

study date tmr!
i hope it works out.
and somehow, i have a feeling its gonna be fun :D
(i need the fun)

no school is great.
but school is great-er.
&i think i might just make my blog private.

2007-09-04T23:57:00.000+08:00

I'm so bloody glad i did it.
im following in my sisters/elles footsteps.
it's like DejaVu all over again, seriously.

&if you believe them,
it shows how much you knew me.

omg i should really learn my lesson. im so pissed.

2007-09-03T16:41:00.000+08:00

my mood today is sdjfhkd/afhklsadfh
seriously.

i just need to get out!
out out out out out out out.
why did it have to rain today?
and why did piggy have to get sick?

on the way to school today, i realised i missed you.
i missed going to jurong.
walking around.
you irritating me until i just felt like slapping you
me being all in your face about everything
(and obviously id win every argument :D )
and i havent talked to you in so long.
we need t catch up.

school today was uhm, okay.
amaths went by real quick (prolly cos we had to draw a million graphs)
but bio was a drag.

i want yesterday back!

~~(some people are going to like the new me, some people aren't. but im not going to care who likes what anymore. but i do know that i wont be the person i have been for the past year.)~~

2007-09-02T22:51:00.000+08:00

HEHHEHHEH
i went running just now
TERAN RUNS YKNOW!
cos well i didnt.
hehhhhhhhh, felt so good to run after like a million years
even though i was dying after a few rounds, round the canal
but still.
besides rashvin said my face was glowing. HEH
that means, running is gooooooood.

ohhhhhh im listening to tease me
i forgot how absolutely yummy that song is

alright then
once i got home from my wonderful run, and rested for like 10minutes
this was the conversation with my sister
"eh, they want to go eat ice cream"
"now? but i just finished running"
"yah, 730"
"whos the they?"
"the two brothers"
"aiyahhhhh, im so tired"
"just go and bathe lah, faster"
"k lah k lah"
haha, i find it rather amusing. dont you?
so i did what i was told, and we when we were ready alr, the idiots havent even left the house yet.
so we went 7/11 and waited by the lift there.
went to bukit timah to have the ice cream
but somehow the two brothers figured it was too expensive so we left (AFTER SITTING DOWN !!!!!) and went to the dunno what place.
the cookies and cream icecream was HEAVEN! yummayyyy. the oreo bits were shiookkk
since we had to much time to kill, walked REAL slowly to the car
drove to mount faber
both brothers were idiots
made me and kiran blow kisses to the PEOPLE by the roadside.
haha they even wound down the windows lah.
i was gonna die
mount faber was quite fun.

teeheehee, teran is happy kid.

2007-09-02T16:22:00.000+08:00

yknow, i just realised (i know abit slow) but my english rather sucks
so, i must start speaking in proper english.
every one of my sentences is sure to have some grammatical(sp?!?!?!) error.
thats why, if you notice that my english is not proper, please do notify me.

alright,
so my holidays are going to be rather boring but hectic.
though i have no idea why.
i just have a feeling that it is going to be that way.
but ive got school on monday and tuesday.
and tomorrow i will be going to cafe del mar.
(i hope it will be fun)

and by,
i just feel like saying that
I LOVE YOU.

2007-09-01T13:51:00.000+08:00

since i was in a rather go-to-hell mood yesterday
i shall be nice today(:

it was teacher's day! (celebration)
crescent's celebrations were uhm, sad.
it was mr samat's last day
and i was running around the school looking for him

went to radin mas
got back
had tuition

got ready
went east coast.
got home abiiit late.
was so bloody tired and moody
i knocked out.

and when i woke up, i didnt want to go back to sleep
cos i was terrified.
terrified if i would dream what i dreamt.
it was horrible.

2007-08-31T22:49:00.000+08:00

ok right now, i feel like last year.
last year december when i was miserable and you could care about was ____
right now, i am miserable cos all you care about is ______ and _____
it doesnt change does it
you still question why i did it?
cos you if do, i can HONESTLY say, and this time im not kidding, you are living in denial
and when you snap out of it,
im not gonna be there anymore
cos i dont care anymore
im past caring
you dont deserve it
any of it
once you said those words, everything you do doesnt matter anymore
im over it
im over you
im over them
so dont fucking talk to me anymore
'cos all u're gonna do is make it worse.
and i think about what i did today
what i did to myself
for the second time in 24hours
and i think, why?
you aren't worth it
YOU WERE NEVER FUCKING THERE
and you still claim, "oh you can come to me what"

where were you, when i was crying myself to sleep.
where were you, when i wanted to slash
where were you, when i resorted to panadol
where were you, when i wanted to smoke
where were you, when i wanted to jump
where were you, when i fucking needed a friend
where were you, when i told you something bothered me
where were you, when i needed someone to talk to you
where were you, when i felt like i didnt have friends anymore
where were you, when i just needed you

you answer all those questions, and then you tell me "teran, you are a fucking slut. you dont deserve my friendship. i dont ever want to talk to you again"
and if you can answer all those questions and tell me that, i will take it all in. i will look you in the eye and say "now i know, i am in the wrong. i admit it. i know i am not worth it."

but the day you walk away,
will be the day that "teran" wont exist in your dictionary anymore.

and im serious.
i have had enough of this bullshit.
and once again i say, i believe in karma.

2007-08-30T23:07:00.000+08:00

currently, my head feels like its gonna burst anyy moment
my eyes are as red as ever
and it feels like someone pushed my head into very high pressure water
and im sorry, i resorted to panadol again
i cant believe you said it ok
i thought you said you loved me.
what the hell is ure problem.
and you turned them against me too?
honestly, it doesnt even have anything to do with you
and you are getting so bloody worked up?
whatthehell lah ok
seriously.

im pissed, hurt and helpless.

so now, you can do what you want.
cos i am cutting myself out of ure life
and everything related to you.
if you dont want me there, so be it.

2007-08-30T19:42:00.000+08:00

so my routine these past few days have been rather boring
study sleep study sleep study sleep
eat, not so much. since ive cut down :D

teacher's day tmr
im not excited though i should be.
it's gonna be real busy tmr.

my hiatus didnt go as planned.
dang
and my study date is waiting to be planned!
gosh, i need to catch up with everything.
finals are in a month
5october here i come!

2007-08-28T20:48:00.000+08:00

it rained today
somehow, it took it all away

walked home in the rain
got drenched, but it felt good.

had a 4-hour nap.
the rest was awesome, but the dreams i had are gonna stick with me.
i know they're not real , but they made sense. they make sense.

was our last PE with Mr Samat.
im gonna miss him
he was the best and only pe teacher i had during crescent.
i really dont want him to go
who's gonna call us twins when hes gone?
but pe was fun, played the scissors paper stone game where we had to run in squares. heh. had my exercise then. heh

getting back history and ss tmr. !!!
how?!
wish me luck baybehh

oh yah, ytd yeewen said something real dumb
"that day, I saw this person. I think IT was a man"
i burst out the moment i heard what she said.
HEHHHHHHHH

2007-08-27T18:12:00.000+08:00

i'm in need of new songs.
heh
i have a sudden obsession with hindi songs.
BLAME THEM!
hehe

dhamaal songs arent out yet and its pissing me off. :/
the song has been ringing my head lahh!
nvm, means that i just need to watch sony already. hehhhh

anws, today i was terribly quiet.
sorry yeewen (i know you always kena when im badmooding)
i got back geog!
b3!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yay for teran!
though another one more mark could have gotten me my A2
but nvm(:
i was expecting a fail.
so now my L1R5 is 25. but if I count punjabi, it would be 20.
YAYYYYYYYYY!
im so proud of me. hehhhhhh
but its prolly gonna go up again during eoys. bleahhhhh

anws, teran is a happy kid now, cos papa bought me An Inconvenient Truth. TEEHEEHEE!
at least now i know when im gonna die
finally lah, i got the bloody dvd.
anws, gonna watch it now
byebyeeeeee

2007-08-26T23:45:00.000+08:00

you know what, i think im gonna go on hiatus.

from everyone.
im gonna start to off my phone and not talk to anyone(unless i have to) online. i dont want to have anything to do with you or you or you anymore. it wont really matter would it?

so byebye people.

2007-08-26T23:00:00.000+08:00

i was happy for 3 weeks.
not anymore.

you want to bitch, go ahead
cos i believe in karma.
burn in hell bitch.

heyy babyy was funnehh
&i cant wait to go out again
plus, i heard theres the dunno what speaker thing in the car now
so i cant wait to sit in the car!
hehe

2007-08-24T19:55:00.000+08:00

Broke my blog-everyday routine.

though it isn't my fault.

Teran was a busy/tired woman the past few days.

Sorry to whoever, esp yeewen, for being so terribly moody and quiet today.

the lack of sleep caused this.

alright, so updates!

temple-d with sanam and harveeeeeeeen on wednesday.

teeheehee, was funnnnnnnnnnn :)

havent been out with them both for like eternity alr.

(look at the two kukus with sanam taking the picture. hehes)

(this was candid. haha, and im standing so weirdly :/)

(god, i look fat. but oh well, sanam!)

(teran stop looking in the mirror alr!)

(sanam and haro!)

camwhoring in the toilet?

what we do best!

haha, caught up with everything. finally!

hehe.

alright then, yesterday!

got home from school. and put my eyedrops (cos my eyes were hurting like crazy)

found out that rash was coming to pick us up and i was going to buy my bag.

which i did!

its so prettaye!

im in love with it. hehhhhhhhhhh

after that sent param home and picked melvin up from his house.

met elle at boat quay and sahara!

heh, was real empty. but thats good i suppose(:

camwhored! like crazy.

but got home late. :/

(me and laddo)

(happy belated 18th elle kaur!)

(isnt she the cutest?)

(eh dont scare me lah melvin)

(melu and laddo)

(melvin with the sisters)

(el and rashvinderrr)

2007-08-21T22:46:00.000+08:00

alright so im bloody shagged
nothing great happened today
plus due to the bad circumstances, it's all adding up to a volcano erupting anytime soon.

*oh my, i just compared myself to some earth-landform-thingy(whatever)

diego luna! dont ya think hes the cutest?

hottie alert!

heh, ok decided to be randommmmmmmm today

alright so school was crap
I PASSED AMATHS AND ENGLISH though
my reaction when i got back amaths was literally
"ohmygod. Oh.My.God. OH.MY.GOD"
english was above expectation, honestly. yay.
now tmr is left, which is totally screwed. cos im pretty sure i messed all the other papers up. D:

went shopping for my bag today
ended up shopping for my sister's shoes
never bring her to charles and keith when there is a sale.
you'll never get her out.
met masada and nadia(sp?!) too.
headed to heeren for my bag, (AND THERE WAS NO STOCK!)
i was really heartbroken.
and the ones at NUM were too ex and beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeg

plus had dinner at NYDC with masada and nadia(sp?!)
now im full! and the taste is still there.
i feel like puking.

2007-08-20T21:28:00.000+08:00

Teran is happy kid :D
since like literally 2 weeks ago, i havent been this happy

Reasons being,
#1 Today marks the end of commontests (not really, got emaths left, but who really cares)
#2 Recess was spent talkinggg (havent done that in a million years, and i guess my story telling time has come backkk. hehehehe)
#3 Emaths was damn funnehhh. me and yeewen were being rather lame and we laughing at every thing we did. hehhhhh. and she* was in a good mood today, so i didnt end up hating her. HEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
#4 You're back!
#5 I had a 3 and a half hour nap in the afternoon/evening just now (:
#6 Ive been smiling since last night
#7 I have my doritos!!!!!!!!!!
#8 The chocolate biscuit thingys i made are still around (abit left) and they are simple irresistable
#9 I can go out already! (except that im grounded, ok i dont make sense, but i know what im talking about)
#10 School is much more enjoyable now

And today, nobody can ruin my happy streak 8D
though you talking to me, would make it a thousand times better

2007-08-19T19:33:00.000+08:00

How does 5hours of mugging sound to you?
all the information crammed in my head is causing alot of pain
if anyone talks to me today, u'll get screamed at for sure.
tmr is gonna suck
&i'm stressed beyond words.
Kinda explains my situation right now

Princess Diaries was on today
After watching it, I got all moody.
Princess Mia got her happy ending.
&I wondered when I'm getting mine.
It's like their rubbing it in that I dont.
And its not nice.
I want i want i want i want ~~you~~

2007-08-18T17:00:00.000+08:00

you made my day 8D

I'm in paiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnn
somebody help me
thankgod i'm not going out today.

It's elle kaur's bday todayyyyyyyy
and yay for her exams.
heh, i mean cos otherwise they would all be going out today, &i'd be stuck at home.

if i dont study now, im screwed on mondayy.
wish me luck.

2007-08-17T18:42:00.000+08:00

I miss you, tell me you miss me too.
it would turn my world upside down.

Would you wait if I came running home to you?
Or if I moved right down the street a block or two?
Distance is never on my side
It only seems to make our dreams collide
And you have gone on to someone new

Would you wait if I wrote you a perfect song tonight?
To make your heart stand still and make your chest grow tight
But I'll never write a perfect line
And I don't even know why I waste my time and try, whoa

And for the longest time
I couldn't love her to save my life
Never a moment of peace in my mind, yeah
Cause in the longest line
The front and the back are the same sometimes
And taking a number has taken my time, whoa

And there are things I know that I don't have the patience for
And when I go to my room I leave an open door
Cause I can't stand to feel alone
And when you come around I'm feeling more at home, whoa

And for the longest time
I couldn't love her to save my life
Never a moment of peace in my mind, yeah
Cause in the longest line
The front and the back are the same sometimes
And taking a number has taken my time, whoa

Don't pass me by
Give me another chance tonight
To make your heavy heart so light that you can fly
Cause every time
I see the light behind your eyes
The whole thing catches me in a moment by surprise

And for the longest time
I couldn't love her to save my life
Never a moment of peace in my mind, yeah
Cause in the longest line
The front and the back are the same sometimes
And taking a number has taken my time, whoa, whoa

And for the longest time
I couldn't love her to save my life
Never a moment of peace in my mind, whoa
(Don't pass me by)
Yeah, cause in the longest line
The front and the back are the same sometimes
And taking a number has taken my time, whoa
(Don't pass me by)

And for the longest time
I couldn't love her to save my life
Never a moment of peace in my mind, whoa
(Don't pass me by)
Yeah, cause in the longest line
The front and the back are the same sometimes
And taking a number has taken my time, whoa
(Don't pass me by)

And for the longest time
I couldn't love her to save my life
Never a moment of peace in my mind, whoa
Sherwood / "For the Longest Time"

it's gonna be my new favourite song.

you know, i realised
everyone loves to say "people never change"
so how the hell do they accuse you by saying
"you've changed, you're not the same person anymore"
honestly, its just dumb.
like if people never change, how can you change into another person?
YOU TELL ME!
im pissed pissed pissed.
like so make up ure mind.

I HATE THAT BLOODY FUCKING ANNOYING BUS DRIVER.
i curse his bus to break down(when no one is inside of course), and then he have to wait there like an idiot. THEN I WILL BE HAPPY AT HIS DESPAIR.
oh man, i feel sadistic
and yesterday i was telling myself to be a good person
but that idiot deserves it.

chem was easier than usual but still like zxczxjfhsjdfkhs cvxs
history sucked.
i had no idea what to write for the second question
and i prolly screwed up the first one too
danggggg

im a mean mean mean person today
sorry yeewen. heh
i was so in-your-face today.
its the history stress lah.
ok? ok.
:D

ok im bored, byebye!

2007-08-16T21:31:00.000+08:00

i dont get you, really.

you made me miss you so terribly yesterday
and today, it was just annoying.
jealousy, honestly it ruins everything.

kate smith's house after school was a nice change

chem and history has turned me into a super tensed freak
630pm tmr would be heaven.
please pray that tmr goes well.
i need it.

there's seriously something wrong with me today
i keep saying "fucking"
help me somebody?
that is only said when something is wrong.
and i dont want anything to be wrong now
nonono, pleaseeeee
ive said it like at least 5 times already
danggg

Celeste's mom is super nice
but her car gave me the most horrible headache ever
:/
oh and i yawned a million times during english today
ive never done that during an exam
:/

2007-08-15T21:47:00.000+08:00

you make me smile :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TERESA WONG MUN YEE!
my arch rival since i dont know when. heh
miss you babe!
manymanymany loves

my tablet screen is as cracked as ever
i think it gets worse everyday
dangggg, its super ugly can.
i want to get it repaired :/

emaths today
and the stupid bitch pissed me off like super alot
she announced to the whole class
"teranjit got the lowest in class for mock exam"
yah ok, i geddit, i slept through half the paper, i would definitely score the best in class what.
she's the dumb-est person alive i tell you

piggy let me listen to a song today
and she told me its from step up
the moment she said that, i instantly thought of last year.
(my mood changed immediately)
ehhhhhh i love my ipod songs now(:
got so many new new ones
hehhehheh
thankyouuuuuuu! for the songs (:

and my friendster is working againnn
love you babe!

today was super duper productive
i mean, i actually understand chem.
I ACTUALLY UNDERSTAND abit OF CHEM!
dont you see how amazing this is for me?!
and i finished tuition homework
arent you proud of me?
i know you areeeeeee (:

oh today's the 15th, should have been 11months. heh

i remembered someone making fun of me for eating with fork and spoon in temple today
nothing wrong what!!!
right anot?

oh yahhhh, yesterday i went to bed and fell asleep at 12
im pissed lah.
then in school i was tired tired tired.
plans to pon school got screwed cos i remembered there's history today
://///////

2007-08-14T19:21:00.001+08:00

actually, it seems like it's alright this way anyways.
though my heart broke when i saw the way you looked at me
it was such a tasneem day today,
pe - soccer with nit diy and tas, "cricket" with tasneem
recess - wennnnnnnnnnny
assembly - tasneem sha durgga hanisah
amaths - tas nit diy apek sha kalyn
cheers - apek tas sha kalyn hazel unknown girl
walk home - tas

told you it was a tasneem day.

amaths was really productive, im surprised and pleased.
sha claims im smart (im not, i hate partial fractions)

got home and fell asleep on the sofa, i was so tired.
and moooody (due to having a long day)
there was this sharp pain in my head for a really long time. and soon i grew used to it though it hurt like hell everytime it came.
(reminds me of something)
but anws, i finished this whole huge packet of potato chips
i feel like such a pig now.
(i should really start listening to what i tell people)

checked my height in school today (cos i had nothing to do)
im like 160?
how could i have shrunk like 3 cm in like 3months
DUMB OR DUMB?
you tell me!

the school machine is crap.
there's emaths tmr, dang
i have to see her face.

listening to sad sad songs now
someone stop me?
radioblogclub, why are you doing this to me?

i hate hate hate hate friendster ok.
it somehow deleted my profile or something.
cos it disappeared
im pissed beyond pissed ok.
hate! hate! hate!

7th month started yesterday.
no wonder i didnt want to go to the kitchen at night.
it felt so eerie.
and kayln is so fun to disturb in class.
dont be so scared k kayln? heh
its only me diy and yw (:

yay radioblogclub is on my side again
happy happy songs please(:
thankyou!

alright then, im gonna hit the books.
its mugging time baybehh

2007-08-13T15:17:00.000+08:00

skipped schooooooooooooooooool today
though i didnt want to
my eyes were red and scarryyyyyyyyyyyyy.
they hurt like crazyy and i couldnt sleep.
suckyyyyyyyyy

thankyou tasneem! for updating me(:

stupid receptionist can go and die lah.
i hate her.

i need to go study alr.
wish me luck.
byebye.

harmin; shuddup k. i love ure secret too. HEHHHHHHHH, i havent started asking you more about it yet. you wait you wait.

2007-08-12T17:56:00.001+08:00

Right now, my eyelashes are stuck together.
stupid eyedrops hurt like sdjkfhdasjhgaskdfha
my eyes have been red since morning.
I woke up thinking i had sore eyes :0
and they are so itchy since forever

anws, i have been getting every amaths question correct(:
yay for polynomials!
i miss tasneem :/
haha, random.

eh tasneeeeeeeeeeeeeem, we need our study date k? for eoys.
cts too near ready. hehe

i cant wait for the 21st! heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

no more four blue walls.
heeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhh

ok please excuse me, im abit high now.

anybody would be a darling to send me nice nice songs so i can be abit updated on the music scene?
oh and i need to camwhore abit more, cos im lacking new pictures :D

harminder kaurrrrrrr! i know ure secret! HEHEHEHEHE
i know yours tooooooooooooooo *hehehehe, and i love ure secret*

i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed to go out. someone please bring me?
i miss sitting in a car and going sentosa or whereverrrr.

2007-08-10T18:45:00.000+08:00

Since I have absolutely nothing to do (except study and clear my table and homework) I shall let you know about my week. HEHHHHH, (ok lame lah i know.)

WEDNESDAY WAS FUN FUN FUN !!!
except the part when i sat next to you (you made me feel like it was my first time talking t you, and we both know how true that is)
same goes to you, love.
finally spent time with yeewen, she has been so busy with exco and stuff. thankgod she was free that day. really missed the stuff we did.
though i didnt really feel patriotic, i realised im gonna miss crescent so much.
got home and slept heh, cos i was dead tired.
went temple at night. was quite fun though it was like 15minutes of torture upstairs. how could i have been so blind to not see them sitting there? :/
so we all sat down and talked downstairs
malvein was being his annoying self. heh, but it was entertainment
saw hervinnn! :D
cabbed back, and played monopoly!
all through the night. hehe, and i kinda lost as usual. hehe,
but i loved my properties, and i wud have won if they continued.

THURSDAYYYYYYYYY
woke up late and studied the rest of the day.
sentosa-ed at night.
was damn fun(:
cabbed to sentosa beach carpark.
waited for them to come and then walked to cafe del mar. and we realised we had nothing to do there.
so took the bus thingyyy to the beach carpark and rash drove us to palawan
walkd to samundar bar or something.
(idontrecognisesentosaatnightitellyou)
i drank sprite! (proud of me?)
they were all so shocked. heh
made kiran follow me to 7/11 so i could get my hot chocolate. hehe
walked back to the car
and they were making fun of me (as usual)
and rashvin threatened to throw me into the sea (for the millionth time)
and i told him to piggy back me.
haha, and he did.
(i love being piggy-backed. hehe)
he was rather amused at how light i was. and so melu piggy-backed me.
heh
and then he carried me in his arms
and rash carried kiran in his arms
and they spun us round and round and so me and kiran kicked each other.
haha i was more concentrating on not falling. heh
sent elle to her place. and then rash drove us back
we were erm, an hour late. HEH

friday (today sucks)
cos kiran is out with them and im at home cos ive got common tests and tuition.
i wanna go out!! not fair lah
i bad-mooded so much :/

I miss you so much, i cant deny
i regret saying all those stuff to you
i really do
i want you back
back when i was the most important person (or maybe second) in your life
now you've got them
and that's prolly the reason why i got thrown aside
but oh well, im used to it.
i doubt things will get back the way they were.
you're not the same person i loved once upon a time.
next time tell me when you decide whats good for me

2007-08-10T00:57:00.000+08:00

IM SO SLEEEEEEEEEEPY!
haha, ok so i wanted to blog.
but now my mind is blank
so byebye.

2007-08-07T22:27:00.000+08:00

today is a very very very very very bad day! I dont like D:< !!!

although massrun was alright (quite satisfied, cos i ran quite abit)
and P.E was funnnnnnn! played soccer. heh. i love my team(: heehee, diyana nita tasneem sha apek kayln yeewen, all damn funny can. :D
after recess i was emo kid lah. D:<

bad mood-ed the whole day after that.

sorry kiran for screaming at you and slamming the front door and banging the gate. and throwing the tablet and everything ok?

fought with by
fought with kiran
fought with him

had to go queensway aloneeeeee
had to go rupinis and my eyebrows hurt now
had to wait for so long (and im not patient)
was so mooodyyyy
i was screaming at everybody.

2007-08-06T18:40:00.000+08:00

it was 7months and 12 days.
not very long actually.
and it all really ended today.
for good.

school was alright today, though yeewen was totally (!!!) annoying me. heh
and i couldnt be bothered to pay attention in bio

my weekend had been busayyyyy
BAYBEATS!
the one on the 4th was good. yesterday's was rubbish.
went to esplanada rooftop terrace with melvin rashvin kiran and elle.
was (:
got back home late though and mommy was pissssssssssssssed.
i was so tired i knockd out at 1145.
as soon as i closed my eyes i fell asleep.

-sorry to everyone i was pissed off at ytd. you got the worst of my moods, sorry.

oh and mommy made my day today by saying my hair is curly curly, nice nice.
heh, ok thats not her exact words but same meaning lah. :D

I CANT WAIT FOR TMR! holidays technically start tmr. (since lessons are so slack)

2007-08-03T21:28:00.001+08:00

By claims that my lips are thin
&I realised that (after denying for so long) that they are. heh
But like i said, Not my loss :D
Right by?

Which reminds me, I'm pissed at youuuuuuuu

I wrote a list today.
And now i'm scared.
im scared beyond words.
im feeling as insecure as ever
maybe even like last year
it reminds me of 23december2006
when i was so nervous
i didnt know what to do
yes or no.
i was so tensed, everyone noticed.
i wanted to make the right decision.
and i did
i took a risk
these 6months have been wonderful, i shouldnt deny.
i dont want to lose that.
but, you leave me no choice (or do you?)
and if it really can work out, i shall wait.
wait till after your o's
wait till after my eoys
i'm really stressed up over being able to promote.
'cos once again im scared
ive been failing my tests
every single one
and i studied so hard for them
and to top that, you. and her.
its no wonder i cant wait to be free.
but I love you.
i realised.
i didnt wait 3months for nothing. (while you pushed me away every single time)
and if it's meant to be, it's meant to be.

Today sucked.
I was feeling so sick the whole time.
my throat hurt
bad.
and i was thinking about you most of the time
and bout amaths and geog, knowing i would fail
i lost my temper several times (and i apologize for that)
im sorry.
to whoever it may concern
esp, you.

yesterday i was waiting impatiently for your call, and when it came, it was so late.
today, i dont want the call.
cos i know ive got to make the decision ive been wanting to make for so long (except now)

i want to tell her all about it. but shes gonna tell me im making a mistake.
knowing her
but maybe i should tell her
before i do something really stupid.
im being selfish i know.
and its just wrong.
im not happy. im just not.
i havent had genuine smiles in so long.
i just want things right again.
those random moments where i would be smiling to myself thinking how life is so bliss.
how ive got everything i ever wanted.
and usually those times were when i was with you.
where have they gone now.

i hate you. i really do.
(but after what you did, i dont think im such a bad person after all)

2007-08-02T14:10:00.000+08:00

It's a Thursday afternoon and I'm at home
:D

I feel like such a ponner. but the only lesson today was bioooo (and we got back our test today, i wanna know how i did!!)

I don't know what to do.
(AGAIN!!!, im getting so annoyed with myself)
Ive already lost so many people (including that bastard)
& losing one more wont make a difference would it?

I cant believe you did this btw,
To think i trusted you that much.
Honestly, I hope you dont EVER come back. ever.
I hate you so so so so so so much.
fuck off and die ok.
it wouldnt make any difference to anyone, except that slut.

Im sorry, I really am.
Though you wont ever read this.
It hurts me whenever you remind me what uve done.
And what ive done.
&thats the reason why its better that way.
I'm being the most selfish bitch ever I know.
but what we really need now is a break.
what I need now is a break.
whatever I told you;
deep down i know its the truest thing ive ever said.
and it wont go away so easily.
though i really dont know whats gonna happen in the future,
i'm not running away from you.
i'm not gonna be the ____, the one ______ sees ____ as.
I am not that person. (or at least i hope not)

you talk about trust.
you didnt tell me who went out clubbing with you the other day.
i didnt even know girls were coming along.
and when i asked who else came, you didnt tell me.
thanks alot.
i mean the thanks, cos now i feel a million times better.

2007-07-30T22:15:00.000+08:00

It's my fault, its my fault, its my fault, its my fault.
It's always my fault.

&now I know why.

Im a selfish, self-centered bitch.
All I think about is myself.

I used to despise those people, I've become one of them.
It's just wrong.

I'm not the same teran i used to be. I know.

(OMG I FEEL LIKE SO THROWING MY PHONE ON THE FLOOR AND WATCHING IT BREAK INTO PIECES, someone save my phone?)

So well crying until i couldnt breathe didnt help.
I feel like crying even more.

I want things to be like it was before 8september2006.
PLEASE?
I only had by to worry about, and my exams

I HATE YOU STUPID EXAMSSSSSSSS!
omg i bet its the stress of the constant worry to do well that is causing this.
Ok teran, now, all you have to do is go home everyday and study. dont go out anymore, cos that's only gonna make things worse. You want to go to SAJC right, study everyone. thats the only way you can go to catch up with everything.

2007-07-28T22:39:00.000+08:00

funFunFUN!

yesterday was funnnnn, but busyy.
school ended early cos of speech day, so yay.
quickly quickly rushed home
fell asleep cos i was deadddd tired.
piggy kept talking to me while i was sleeping, so i was shouting at her half the time. and there were so many ahnoying msgs. tsk.
woke up and got ready.
rashvin elle and melu were waiting for us in the car. heh.
went to east coast cos piggy wanted to go to the drive thru for ice cream.
after that went vivo city, slacked at Pacific Coffee Company
elle left
so me melu kiran and rashvin went cafe del mar.
had a couple of drinks.
and went for a walk.
to the barnacles or something like that, (at rasa sentosa)
after that sat by the rocks on the beach.
stupid melu was taking my picture, (i lookd damn yucky can)
walked to back to the car.
rashvin drove us back home.

TODAY!
punjabi school was boringggggggggggggg.
really, i fell asleep.
rushedddd home, and quickly got ready to go to georgie's house.
sat there for a while and went to lidooo
i was early, as usual.
waited for the rest for soooooooooooooooooooooooo long.
watched SIMPSONS!
quite funny, but not that funny. yknow?
walked around for a bit, and left (i knew i was late)
reached the georgie's house,
and then had dinner. (esha as usual had her comments)
(I LOVE THEIR HOUSE, DAMN BLOODY NICE)
yada yada yada, lazy to elaborate.

just got back home and im soooooooo tired.
I want to sleep forever man.

Im nervous for tmr. Its gonna be so rush again.

2007-07-26T19:48:00.000+08:00

/edit
I SAW A BLOODY NICE ORANGE FERRARI YESTERDAY!
omg!
-hyperventilates
/edit

MY LEG PAINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

ok enough complaining,

HAPPY 9th MONTH ZOEY LEE!
I love you many many, and these 9months have been wonderful!

Today sucks okay. enough said.

2007-07-25T19:55:00.001+08:00

Right, i couldn't sleep again last night.
It's been happening quite a lot lately.
School was slackkkkkkkkkk.
Pe, had to take 2.4 time for those who failed but me and yeewen ended up running with them. (we can be future motivators!)
ran 1 and a half rounds. (its alot ok, 2 and a half is 2.4)
had my exercise for the day. heh.

after school, popped by s3, to visit suuuuuuuuuuu.
turned out they were going out, so i extra extra asked if i could come.
hehe
so me zoey su aisah shyan and ryhan went towning!
cos su wanted long johns and town was the nearest for me.
long john-ed.

and then we played hide-and-seek!
haha, in cine.
summore, me ryhan and aisah had to carry zoey's shyan's and su's bags.
cos well, we took their bags and hid when they went to buy sweet.
heh, was quite fun yknow.
and we won cos we saw them first! haha
and the security guard was following us around when we were running. HEH, it was damn funny can,

played with the photo-taking laptop thingys (pictures below)
and, took neoprints!
yeahhhh, thats about it.

which reminds me, i need to study bioooooooo!
wish me luck.

(colours!)

(look at the monsters! rather cute monsters though)

(sweeeeeeeeeeeet)

(su's like a fish. HEHHHHHH)

(eh?)

(shyan ryhan me)

(shyan, ryhan, me(but you cant see me cos ryhan pushed me out), su)

(baby and meeeee)

2007-07-24T19:41:00.000+08:00

Teran is a happy person today(:
compared to all my moody moments over the past week (which was rather too much)
It has been a pleasant change, im smiling and talking alot for once.

All my homework(overdue) also has been done.
Me and Denise were doing emaths the whole day.
&even YeeWen asked me why I was so hardworking today.
HEH, i have no idea, but i like the new me
feels good to finish up my work
Now, i've got bio, history, tuition, punjabi and chem left. But oh well, heh, very fast can do. hehe.

I did the stupidest, (Really, damn stupid) thing just now.
Here goes the situation ok.
I wake up and I think whats the time ah? I look at the clock on my phone "07:29"
and I think, WTH, why mommy never wake me up?! why the hell am i still sleeping. I'm supposed to be at school. Then I look out of my window, its still abit dark what, cannot be 7oclock. I look at the clock in my room.
"6:30"
then i think to myself "why is my phone time wrong. and then date, its the 24th, it supposed to be 25th! whats wrong with my phone?"
so i changed the settings. (i know im damn dumb)
and then i realised, OMG IM SO STUPIDDDDDDDDDDD, i just woke up from my afternoon nap. not in the morning.

HAHA, ok now you can laugh at me.

Don't get too close to someone,
you'll never know when they are gonna steal you're heart and run away.

/edit
I dreamt of you just now,
u apologized and explained your actions. (sadly, they werent what i was looking for)
i didnt like what you told me, but in a way i did.
kinda showed i was right all along, (sort of)
but i still didnt like your decision,
and when i woke up, it felt so real. and i wondered whether its a sign
or is it just a figment of my imagination, telling me what i want to hear.
should i listen to what you said, or should i let go like a bad dream.
please just give me one more sign.

oh and ricky replied my email, :D
/edit.

2007-07-23T20:26:00.000+08:00

People Always Leave
yknow, i never used to believe in that, but now i do
(aren't i the best example)

oh and happy 7th month.

/edit
what would you do, if what you thought was true, wasn't
and what you thought wasn't true, was?
would you retreat into your dreams with the hope of finding a more perfect reality?
but you can only hope, in that dark reflection, that you are not alone

2007-07-22T20:24:00.000+08:00

ITS SUNDAY!
and the 22nd.
6months 29days 21hours and 32minutes.
pretty long eh?

Yknow, my perception of things change every few days.
It's bloody annoying.
I mean, I've already made up my mind, could you stop trying to change it?

"So you stole my heart."
HEH, baby just came online (I feel damn random)

IF ANYONE HAD RIDE IT BY JAY SEAN PLEASE DO SEND IT TO ME, thankyouverymuch.

Went pasir ris today, for Sajjyn's One-Year-Old bday! shes bloody cute. Looks so goriiiii! will put up pictures when im not so lazy.
The get-together was fun except for the two spoilers. SNITCH!
played lego! haha, with myself and i made a masterpiece. HEHHEHHEH. I miss playing with toysssssss, i had a lousy childhood. D:<

Going on to harry potter.
I read the book in like 24hours(or less!) haha, im so proud of me. heh.
I wont be a spoiler and say what happened(:

Fairytales dont happen in real life, it just doesnt.
OH WELLLLLLLLLLL

I feel really mean about what I'm doing.
But I've been thinking, maybe its your fault for not giving me enough attention.
And maybe it's my fault for being so fickle.

I dont know.
It's just not meant to be.

Which reminds me, I'm supposed to email Rickyyyyyyyyy like now. Miss him so so so so much.

2007-07-20T23:49:00.000+08:00

It was Racial Harmony Day today
&I really wanted to wear a Kabaya. but no one in class was wearing, so ):
Sarah looked really nice :D, the new Bollywood Star eh?
(which reminds me i really need to reply her postcard, OH and denise gave me pretty pretty simpsons postcards. LOVE YOU DENISE!)
The sec4s looked super nice.
They were all dressed up and looked so pretty 8D
NVM NVM, next year will be my turn

Tuition was alright, she came half an hour early and I woke up like 3minutes before she came. I was like OH SHIT! k anws, school tmr, and i really dont want to go. wish me luck.

2007-07-19T12:39:00.000+08:00

It's SocialStudies now.
Already done the stupid question (damn fast, im shocked)
so I'm free to do whatever i want.
Using yeewens tablet, cos i was too lazy to bring mine. heh.

Had counselling session with mrs wong just now.
was quite fun
and it got me thinking.
alot.

anws, so yesterday after school had my oral (finally, after a million post-pone-s)
it was alright lah, I was really nervous about it.
Went to s3 after that to annoy su, heh.
omg constance damn funny,
and while su had reap, i did amaths. i did like 1 and a half questions but still proud of me. heh.
EH, i was rather preoccupied cos of something okay.

waited for like an hour and 45minutes for a bloody phonecall. and still not appreciated. I got damn pissed.
looks like im making the right choice after all.
though it hurt to see u like that.

went temple with sanam. missed her lah.
went home early.
or rather went home on time!
i was earlier than my curfew for once
i was damn proud of myself lah. hehhehhehheh.
and mommy talked to me properly ytd so im damn glad(:
finally(:

OH YAH I GOT MILKY BAR IN THE FRIDGE! hopefully its not eaten yet. otherwise im going to go buy another one. HMPH

2007-07-17T19:19:00.000+08:00

Let's start with Friday, shall we?
Friday was the 13th, aka, bad luck day?
I GOT BOOKED FOR NOT WEARING BLOUSE DURING ASSEMBLY AND IT WAS A MASSRUN DAY. I wanted to slap the bloody councillors ok.
Well, it really sucked okay. stupid annoying friday.
hate that stupid annoying bitch. it was her fucking fault, then make me stand. walao. i was cursing and cursing her, hoping she would fall and roll down the rotunda. fucking bitch.
im so pissed.
HATE HER HATE HER HATE HER.

ok anyways, dont want to get pissed anymore so lets move on to saturday.
Went rupee room again. YAY! -lame.
Erm, but anws, was fun fun fun(:
Got home from school and then sleptt for like an hour plus? quickly got ready. then piggy was arguing and then she was late late late. we cabbed to tampines.
got ready again. cabbed to clarke quay. waited for the rest to come and went rupeeroom.
yadayadayada im damn lazy to elaborate. &there might be spies aroundddddd. so yeah.

sunday went boonkeng. got home late. was damn emo-fied on the ride home. did something meeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnnn when i got back. but its for the best yeahh?

Monday monday monday was alright. School ended at 1215. HEHHHHHH.

I keep thinking today is Wednesday. Damn.

2007-07-13T23:13:00.000+08:00

Screw love. Screw Boyfriends. Screw Best friends. They have never been there, and they never will.

Too bad I had to learn that the hard way.

And for once, I really feel alone.
Do it first, before they even have the chance

2007-07-12T18:14:00.000+08:00

My smile went missing today .
TODAY is the worst day ever! haha ok no lah, but it sucked.
I was the quietest ever today.
Hardly said much and yeewen concluded i was moody.
Even TanYewHock asked if i was alright.

Supposed to have Oral today.
Waited until 3.30 with everyone else but he didnt come!
And he postponed it to monday.
When monday, school ends at bloody 1230. ( i think, or is it 1215?)
But it was funneh talking about ______.

I cut my hair!
Its bloody short now. and I only like it when its straight. which is like never?!

Tmr is chem spa! omg im damn scareddddddddd
But oh well, my chem sucks anyways.
why bother?

My throat hurts like fuck and I think my getting sick.
It's been hurting for quite a while alr.
dangggg.

OHYAH, now I remember what I wanted to blog about.
today, on the way home from school, i was crossing the traffic light at the condo there deep in thought (and rather stressed up). suddenly some very familiar voice shouted "TERAN!" and I got REALLY shocked and scared and i looked up with a very priceless expression. And saw sarahkatesmith. and she had that look on her face. OMG. and shes damn proud of what she did! omg! but i was really damn scared lah. heh.

It's not gonna be okay, I know it.

2007-07-11T20:10:00.000+08:00

Well when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

When after all this time that you still owe
You're still, the good-for-nothing I ~~don't~~ know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow

So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa

When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"

Well come on, come on

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday"

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

HELLO(:
I tell you ah, the weather SUCKS ok.
I don't like how it always rains when I'm school.
I know you don't like me right! hmph!
Anws, DianaTang was damn nice to me today. OMG. I'm shocked.
Not once did she pick on me(I think).
And I told yeewen im gonna be nice to her today to get in her good books. HEH.

I need to cut down on my eating. My legs are growing fatter again.
Someone teach me how to stick to my diet?

~~I feel damn bitchyyyyyyyyyyy~~
Im losing them, I can feel it.
I'm planning to sleep early today.
Maybe at 10?
Which will prolly drag all the way to 11 - 12.
But I'm gonna try.
Enough sleep would give me more energy to concentrate in class

I've got oral tmr, Dang!
Help me please? Let me do well.

Dropped by By's class today.
By, don't yawn and have the flu anymore okay?
please?
I've been trying to tell you this for like so long already, so please?

Share-A-Thought was funneh todayy!
HEH.
But I hate YO for the new rules.
What the hell is her bloody problem? I seriously want to sdjkflsiofdjsafas!

whats up with the four-button rule and the class tags. omg.
its so lame!
get a life ~~bitchhhh.~~
everyone in crescent hates you.

2007-07-10T23:55:00.000+08:00

Yknow, im not the same person I used to be.
The old teran is gone.
I dont know how it happened, when it happened or why it happened.
I want her back.
But I have no idea how.

I'm not as patient as I used to be.
Neither am I as understanding or nice.
I seem to want everything for me nowadays.

Maybe Mommy is right, I am spoilt.

can you please come back?

2007-07-10T19:08:00.000+08:00

Today I was bloody annoyed ok.
First when I got to school, I found out that PennyAng wouldnt coming to class and neither would TanYewHock. Then I was thinking, MT, PE, Recess, Amaths, English. All free periods. And Why the hell did I go to school?! I was damn pissed off.
But because today was so slack, me and wenny were going kuku. We were honestly doing the stupidest things.
Did amaths tys during amaths and english. Was damn productive lah. Even though we took like 2hours to do like 4 - 5 questions. its alright. i wasted so much paper.
Assembly was cool today. Some angmoh band came to perform. I liked the video more though. It was damn funny. Me and tasneem couldnt stop laughing. OH YAH then when they were throwing the chocolate biscuit thingys, one was going to land like near me. So i screamed cos i thought it would be pain. heh. in the end it landed like behind me? Quite stupid I know.

KATESMITH! good luck with you dream of being a bollywood star! (random i know)

2007-07-09T16:10:00.000+08:00

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HAHA. ok i dont know what made me type that. HEH.

Ok my sister just asked me "Do you want to eat anything from the fridge?"
and I nodded and she just stared at me blankly. Shes going crazy too.

I need to do my homework! Its overdue for like a million years.

Ok Ive got nothing to blog about today. damn.

2007-07-08T20:00:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling really really down again. It's bad.
All I feel like doing is crying.
But I dont want to. Not now.
I dont want to feel weak again.
Not now.

It's all so messed up now.
Everything I do seems wrong.
Maybe thats what I was made for.
To make mistakes.
Mistakes every other person suffers for.
well thats how it seems anyway.

I feel like I'm not worth it.
Not worth it for anybody, anything, any place.
Who would want a girlfriend like me?
Who would want a friend like me?
Who would want a sister like me?
Who would want a daughter like me?
I doubt anyone.

I need a shoulder. I need someone to cry to. But theres no one.
No one to understand. Oh wait, its my fault. Whats there to understand.
I dont usually cry to anyone, cos they are all so caught up with their own problems. And I can't bring myself to show them I'm so weak.
But I want to so bad.
I need to know that someone is there.
Someone who cares.
But I doubt there is.

Its all lies.
EVERYTHING.
well, what goes around comes around, isnt it?
I deserve it.
All of it.

Fuck you lah teran,
cant you ever do anything right?
Do something for others sometimes and not ureself.
~~bloody selfcentered bitch~~

2007-07-07T22:20:00.000+08:00

FRIDAYS ARE THE LONGEST DAYS EVER!
but yesterday was fun!

Sarah my Love went out with me and Tasneem. Finally(:
I missed her so.
Lunched at Taka (which reminds me, I owe KateSmith money, oh and Celeste too)
Bitched as usual. &KateSmith is really cute when she eats. &I still can't believe you eat chilli now!
Oh yah, Tasneem and Sarah are both damn mean, I tell you! They both ah, tsktsk.
Waited for Celeste and took NEOS! haha, now I know where Sarah gets her crazy-ness from. I loved the neos. we had so much stupid fun taking them(:
DAMN! I Miss them already :/
NVM! Swimming date soon! and Playground date toooo! SOOOOOOOOOOON please?

2007-07-05T14:45:00.000+08:00

Im back from KL(:
Finally Ive been to that pathetic place.
I dont feel so deprived anymore hehhehheh.

Sundaysundaysunday was damn funnnn! omg, everytime i go out with them its fun(: Got kicked out of khalsa so went to the streetsoccer court there. Watched them play. Had lunch and then went playground. Played redindian(was it?) and i didnt get caught once also. Genius? and we won 3-0! yay! Went to some other block or something play the hide/seek game Ali-dunnowhat. haha we were damn bastard to Sunther. haha! was damn funny. Got home, packed my stuff bad mood-ed alot. no idea why.

KL!
Day1.
Van-ed to the place. Checked in. Hotel was niceeee(: CONCORDE! Our rooms were like really far apart. And we girls(me kirandeep preena) got the LAST room of the level. And the mommypapa got a room 2floors above. SHIOK! haha. We wanted to go swim but we were too lazy so we slept the afternoon away. got up, bathed and went for dinner. The food wasnt very nice ): and then headed to twin tower. The shopping there is shiok! bought 2 mango tops. And kirandeep bought a handbag thingy. quite nice. got back watched tv, waited for the aircon man to come (our aircon was spoil) and then went to sleep.

Day2.
Woke up real early. 5.50 i think. I was the first to wake up so i bathed and woke the others. Quickly got ready and had breakfast. The hotel breakfast was heaven! I love hotel breakfast-es. damn shiok lah always. went to the place. sat down for so long. got damn tired. slept in the van on the way to lunch. had lunch. the thosai were really good. it was the nicest ive ever had lah. went back to the hotel, changed and went times square. shopped abit. went to the indoor theme park. the rollar coaster is bloody boring lah. me and preena sat there with our eyes open and not screaming at all. haha. went back hotel, changed and had dinner. ate until i couldnt eat anymore. was damn full. got back to the hotel and me and preena went to go and annoy bibi. haha. we rang her room doorbell and ran away. was damn funny. went back to our room after talking to her for awhile and watched tv and slept.

Day3.
I woke up the earliest again and bathed blahblah. breakfast was even nicer! sat there for another few hours. checked out. lunch was delicious! every single dish was nice and i ate so bloody much again. got into the van and it was hello singapore.

So thats my KL trip. Hardly took any pictures (surprisingly) It was fun lah. cos preena was there to liven it up. heh.

School was alright. damn slack. andddd mommy had to force me to go. wasnt feeling up to staying back for so long so i came back home.

Baby,
Cheer up okay? I know everything is going wrong for you. but im here okay. no matter what. i will always always be ure baby. and dont say ure a burden cos ure not. not to me(: so cheer up. LOVE YOU lots and lots. and though i can be very difficult, you know i love youuuuu :)

Anws, i just wanted to say.
Before you start blaming me for everything like everyone always does. Take a look at the position you've put me in. I agree, some part of it is my fault. But you are not being fair to me at all. You had your chance, once. or maybe even twice. But you blew it. Now is definitely not the time for you to try again. Cos I can tell you now, its not gonna work. Even if i something happens btw me and him, (touch wood) its not gonna work any time soon. I need my time, i need my space. Besides, I don't even know ure intentions. I can't trust you esp after all ive heard. And trust is something that i dont do very easily. I took maybe about 6months to completely trust him. And I doubt u are gonna be any easier. I'm sorry okay, if i did anything wrong. I really am. But there's nothing I can do about it. I love govind. And he is my boyfriend for a reason. Like I said, you had ure chance and you blew it. stop blaming me for something you brought upon ureself.

2007-06-30T21:29:00.000+08:00

It's saturday!
This week passed by so fast.
But it's good in a way. I can't wait for December ~~ok not really~~

Anyways, ive been kinda really busy these past few days.
Wednesday went temple. (i think i said this already)
Thursday was one of the best days ever. omg, (personal reasons. heh! sweet revenge) LD was alright though the two juniors were bloody ahnoying. went to boonkeng after that to buy something and got back home. Slept damn early. at 11. i was shocked! heh
Friday school was alright. Youth Day Concert was funnnnnnn! haha the last performance(wasit?) was damn funneh! though i got kinda grossed out with some of the teachers. But they can dance! woohoo! damn hot can! Went home to sleep. I was seriously dead tired. Hadnt had proper rest in a long time. woke up for tuition and after than quickly quickly got ready to go to khalsa. it was kinda fun i guess(:
Today school was alright. got home and slept. yay?

Tag Replies! (i know damn late lah, but haha, i was lazy)
Khaliesah; I miss Aza and Raffles toooooo! and thanks for the link! lovelove!
Ain; I miss them too! haha you and liesah were great tent-mates
Tasneem; YEAH! omggg, you like nearly died laughing or something
Prabhz; I miss you too bitch! and haha i know im lazy. im damn lazy. like the most ever. haha. i just dont want to admit it. or rather dont want to admit to THEM that im lazy! hahaha! LOVEYOUUUUUUUUU

2007-06-27T23:10:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY! was fun but it sucked.
MONDAY! first day of school was loveeeee. okay not so, but yeah it was alright.
TUESDAY! was slackkkkkkkkkkk beyond slack. but sucked.
TODAY! sucked in the morning. but was fun fun fun at night(:

Eh I fell in love with a new tamil song!

ANYWAYS
Im damn hyper now. dont know why.
but i wanted to say, my life sucks right now. (by knows why) and i look like im holding it tgt but im not. omgggg, im breaking down like a thousand million times. im screaming at everyone. damn this so sucks.
I dont know what to doooooooooooooo! I dont want to lose them, but ive got no choice. why cant you understandddddddddddddddd!!!!!! ahnoying!

2007-06-23T22:23:00.000+08:00

soooooo, 200607 - 220607 was ndk and khatra's chalet.
i woke up and realised i was having damn bad cramps. spoiled my whole mood and i was screaming in pain the whole morning and afternoon. i finally managed to get ready but it was too late so i couldnt meet the rest.
i reached eastcoast at 5+? i think. and they were ALL missing. so i sat down at some bench and talked on the phone and emo-ed.
after like an hour i decided to go back to the chalet to check. and the guys were there. and the girls were at the pool.
waited for them to bathe and stuff.
got back, and slacked. yada yada yada
the fight, everyone was so tensed.
then told ghost stories. stupid prabu simran and manbir were trying their best to scare me. sad to say, they kinda succeeded. D:<
after that, some people went to sleep. and we were making fun of salwin. was damn funny.
yada yada yada
watched the sun rise.
slept. for like an hour plus? was damn tired.
went swimming! and then saw some UNWANTED people. D:<
bathed, went to the hawker centre with sanam and had lunch. at like 5 lah. i was STARVING. had a heart to heart talk.
got back and i couldnt take it anymore so i went to sleep.
stupid idiot elvin spoiled my sleep by stealing my pillow and fighting with me. D:<
went down for a while and really couldnt take it anymore so i went up to sleep again.
slept for about an hour and again that idiot elvin came and spoilt it by stealing my pillow. but this time i couldnt really be bothered to fight back so i kept falling asleep and waking up, falling asleep and waking up. that kinda thing yknow.
the rest is a blur. i cant think of much now. the ghost stories, the card games. the sleeping. yeah.
i cleared up the place in the morning. abit. haha.
THEY went swimming. i just went to the pool to watch. and the idiots threw me into the pool lah. i was literally hugging the pole, and the did their very best to carry me into the pool. idiots.
after that, bathed, ate and went back home.
did i say, everyone was bullying me?
esp, arun, nitesh, simran and manbir. I AM NOT LAZY. neither am i emo. nor cranky!!!!!
i was arun and manbir's life-sized barbie doll cos i couldnt be bothered to stop them from playing with my hair. it was entertainment for them lah huh. :D

ok there were alot more pictures but i was damn lazy to upload so oh well. maybe someday when manbir sends me the rest.

(finally a picture with everyone tgt, except me again)

(ndk! except me and ujjal cos i was the cameraman and i hadnt been thrown into the water yet)

(khatra team talk)

(ndk team talk)

(thats 4 guys on one small little bed, now we know)

(prabhz and meeee. love this bitch lah)

(omg i think this picture is bloody cool. heh)

(amrit haro prabhz jaspreet)

2007-06-19T15:59:00.001+08:00

Sunday was netball!
ok, didnt really play netball. or rather i didnt even touch the ball. hehhehheh. ran a few rounds. felt goooooood though my teeth hurt (i know got no connection but yeah, when i ran my teeth hurt real bad)
then we surprised prabhz with a cake. it was her birthday! :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN. (though its abit late) hope you had fun(:
had mcs for lunch, ate like a pig cos i was starvingg! headed to the playground and we played ice and water and i dunno what other games. yay! haha okay lame. but yeah i had fun fun fun(:
after that went back home, got ready got went yishun. played with babli. shes damn damn damn damn cute.

I CANT WAIT FOR TOMORROWWWWWW!!!!!

2007-06-18T23:09:00.000+08:00

ok ok its time for the post for Obs.
sorry lah, i feel damn lame now. so dont mind me.

Day 1;
Took the bus there with Yeewen<3, (omg this whole thing went missing, and im took lazy to type it all out. will do it when im not lazy)

Day 2;
Woke up late! but its okay lah, i didnt bathe though. we played the games. its was funny! enjoyed it :D did the rockclimbing thing. I DONT LIKE ROCKCLIMBING. D:< ! started raining but we still kayak-ed after it. i kayaked with feixin and thrina. was tiring but damn fun. reached our campsite. and i was gross-ed out. and apparently its called shopping centre. quite stupid cos its a JUNGLE. stupid. well then carried the kayaks and stuff. and all the backpacks and all. set up our tents in the dark. i was damn pms-y. cos i was tired/sick/homesick. sorry to everyone i vented my anger on. i was cursing non-stop. damn. ate like a hungry ghost. until i could eat no more. and told Aza i was sick. he gave me medicine. i took my own. and i fell asleep within no time. woke up at 330 to do night duty. i was damn freaked out. it was really scary cos i kept hearing things. the place was really dark and freakyyy!!! i hugged Ain's arm really tight. hehe. and then some insect was in our tent which prevented us to sleep. and while i was sitting down in the tent, i heard a wild boar right next to my head. i was fucking scared. i thought i was never gonna live again. thankyou god for saving my life.

Day3;
woke up at ard 5plus. unpitched the tent in the dark. played the games. which were rather fun again. trekking day. i was sick and cldnt carry on. but i pulled through with the help of my teammates. (: dont want to elaborate cos well, i dont want to go through it again. sat by the beach and talked with sarah, nat, steph and ryhan. gossiped in tents with madhu, dhashni, nanthiyni(: and got breifed about the next day.

Day4;
I was sick and Aza told me to make a choice. Do I want to continue or go to the Medical Centre. I chose to continue. I knew I could do it. I would try my best. & I did. We got on the row boat and I got really pissed and helpless cos I didnt know how the hell to row the bloody fucking boat. And then Nicole pissed me off even more cos she wasnt doing anything. And soon I got the hang of rowing a boat and I rowed and rowed until I really couldnt take the sea-sickness anymore. We sang songs and threw water at each other to keep each other awake and to cheer us on. It was damn fun. and we bonded as a watch so much. It felt so good. Reached Camp 1 and the toilets were heaven. the first thing i did was throw water on myself and get rid of all the sea water. haha. and go to the toilet! omg, finally, proper toilets. felt damn good. it was like paradise. packed my bag and stuff. was looking all over for Yeewen. i missed her so bad. feixin and me quickly went to change and went to meet aza so we could eat. THE FOOD WAS HEAVEN. really. i can still taste it now. thats how good it tasted. i want that food back. nightwalked back. it was really scary but i had feixin beside me and aza in front. i felt comforted. our tent got switched! we got really scared. then we found it! Shackleton took it. heh. then we had our talk with aza. i was so sad. i knew i was gonna miss Raffles so much. and i felt so bonded together. me and Khaliesah were damn high cos we were going home the next day. hehhehheh

Day5;
I NEARLY CRIED. i was so sad. i miss azaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. i miss rafflesssssssss. omggggggggg. our last talk. i was tearing. im gonna keep the string close to my heart. always.

ah i cant continue anymore. too emotional. i miss aza so bad ):

I LOVE YOU RAFFLES! (Teran, Fei Xin, Thrina, Khaliesah, Ain, Man Li, ChenXin, Ching, Bernice, Alcina, Beatrice, Nicole, Jesslyn, Aza)

THANKYOU AZA for being the bestest best instructor ever

2007-06-16T23:13:00.000+08:00

I'm back from OBS!
Finally, civilization

I miss Aza & Raffles. Real bad.
I wanted to cry so bad when we had our last "talk"
Aza was the best instructor I could ever ever ever have.

I'm in no mood to blog about OBS now, I'm darnnnnnnnnnnnnnn tired. Will do it tmr or when I feel like it.

Got home yesterday and quickly bathed and got ready. My sister(who got her license already yesterday) drove me to east coast so I could eattttttttttt my mcdonalds. then we went changi and yishun and then back home. I was so tired I couldnt keep my eyes open.

Today, woke up, got ready, went harbourfront. Sister picked us up, went sentosa, raining so went under our block. Saw this damn cute dog, played with it for so long(: went to the very nice maccers went km8 came home. damn tired, want to sleep but waiting for 12 so i can wish people.

I WANT TO SLEEP.

2007-06-09T21:55:00.000+08:00

I was so stoned yesterday. I didnt talk, much. I couldn't even be bothered to scream at my sister. And I had absolutely no energy to do anything. I had no energy to get pissed at you for not being able to talk.

But, yesterday was fun. Watched Pirates of the Caribbean3. Johnny Depp is soooooooo hot(: And I think this movie is the best of the three. HEEEEEEEEE(:

Thursday went out with darlingggggggg sanam. Had fun. We did so many stupid stupid thingss. LOVE YOU BABES!

IM DOING HOMEWORK NOW
stupid emaths sucks

2007-06-07T13:26:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I look at you, and I get so envious of what you have. My jealously has always been an issue for me.
But now I think about it, at least I have a sister who loves me and who will always be there for me. Even though sometimes her anger gets the better of her and she puts others before me. But i know she is there for me, from experience.
At least I have parents who love me and each other. They dont fight as much. and they give me the basic necessities of life.
At least I have enough money to survive on. Even though its not as much as i hoped it would be, im still happy with it.
At least I have friends who are there for me. they may not be the bestest best friends ever, but they are there for me. They wont backstab me.
At least I have the cousins who love me and care for me.
At least I have the boyfriend who loves me. At least we dont fight everyday like you do. At least I didnt cheat on him(im definitely not like you) and even though we argue all the time, i still know i love him, all of him. we piss each other off, but thats what brings us closer.

At least I have all that. Now I think, my life is so much better than yours. And I'm glad for that.
So fuck off bitch, I hate you. Get that in your silly little head. No sorry is gonna make it all better. I think you know that, but just wont give up. I may say its okay, but you should know better by the way im treating you. Dont be the stupid person you are. Get some sense in that hollow head of yours. Fill it with something useful.

2007-06-06T13:33:00.000+08:00

i wanted to blog yesterday, but i was in the worst possible mood ever.
total opposite from the day before though.

monday i was Ms Smiley. honest, i was smiling the whole day. from the moment i woke up to the moment i went to sleep. i want monday back!!!

and i dont want to talk about yesterday. cos it was bloody ahnoying.

today going temple, i think. ((((((((: just dont want to see *~~you~~

Wife, cheer up okayy? and take care of yourself. (:

I'd walk to you if I had no other way

2007-06-03T17:29:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DARLING YEEWEN!

so girlie, you've finally turned 15(: you can get ure ic now! i bet you've been waiting ages. you'll get ure present soon okay, and a cheapo card along with it. haha. I Love you lah. spent like 6 and a half years getting to know you and stuff. and looks like i know all the basics. though you hardly ever open up to me i feel like i know you better than anyone. i still remember in primary 3, we used to go "my cough is real, ures is fake" everyday, without fail. haha. and how you abuse me everytime, and i scream at you for no reason. and we'd both feel like killing each other cos we're so darn annoying. all our stupid inside jokes. and we both know each other so well that we explain our actions to others. yeewen yeewen, what would i do with out you. like our dear mr samat says, we're twins(: i know we've drifted apart this year. u've been so busy with exco, and me with *ahem. ahah, remember that i love you okay! and always will. if there's anything, im here for you. you should already know that by now. and now i cant wait for school to start so i can annoy you more(: and oh yah, thankyou for tahan-ing my nonsense and moodswings(: my bestest bestie ever
maluzy loves you, cranana :D

&I love you too, always and forever

2007-06-03T16:40:00.000+08:00

It's been a while since I've been here. I have been busyyy!

Mondayyy

First day of school. I was dman energetic(cos i slept at 4! haha) i know my theory is rather weird, but it works. and my memory has failed me cos i dont know what happened afterwards. i think i stayed at home or something.

Tuesday
second day of school. chem was damn boring lah. didnt know what the hell was going on. went home, slept for a while and then went out with mommy to buy her phone. its damn pretty. i fell in love with it. )):

Wednesday

last day of school(: YAY! dianaT totally pissed me off though. dont know what the hell is her problem. went home and watched tvvvvv. slept at 430 and 6+. quickly quickly got ready and went airport. met prabhz in the train!!! she cut her hairrr! it was a pleasant surprise and i missed her(: after airport, cabbed to clarke quey and headed to Rupee Room. slacked for while and then hit the dance floor. it was fun lah huh. (: drank cosmopolitan(sp?!) and had a tequila shot. actually one and a half. haha. and at least i didnt get drunk or something. cabbed to elle's place

Thursday
woke up late, watched tv, slept again, got ready and went home with elle.

Friday
did absolutely nothing the whole day and got ready at night. the sangeet was a total failure. saw a few nice people though(:

Saturday
went for the desi mixta thingy. quite failure but it was fun. nice to get out and do stupid things again. went with sanam, manpreet and sunther(sp?!) met prabhz there as well, and she was my dancing partner for the day. the place only started getting packed at ard 7 and that was when it started getting fun. damnn.

TODAY will be spent for homework. though an hour has been wasted on this stupid tablet.

(I was abit high lah huh, so started taking pictures in the toilet at Rupee Room)

(camwhored while waiting for elle to bathe)

2007-05-28T17:39:00.000+08:00

Since I'm in a rather good mood, I shall blog about my week(:

Friday

School was pointless. Had no lessons and I had to wake up early. D:<>

After that, went home to sleeeeeeeeeeeeep cos I was bloody tired. Got ready to go Yishun after my nap. I couldnt stand the train ride. It was damn damn damn damn longgggggggg. I dont ever want to take the train there anymore. Had dinner/tea?/food at McD. BABLI is SOOOOOOO cuteeeeeeeee! I fell in love with herrrrr. I cant wait to go see her again.

Saturday

Cleared my rooooooom. Went to Tampines, slept(cos of my medicine), had dinner and cabbed to Hougang. Watched some tv, waited for the rest to come and then playd Monopoly. It was rather fun. I was laughing non-stop; thank god for the nice change. Got rather sleepy after a while. Went back at around six. Knocked outl; hehhehheh.

Sunday

HEROES! Watched like 4 episodes in a row(: Quickly quickly got ready and cabbed home. Changed and cabbed to the restaurant. Had family dinner. It was damn fun cos well, we were doing stupid things.

(all the kids)

2007-05-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

I was oh-so-happy just now cos I basically had about 24hours of pure happiness and that fucking idiot had to spoil it all. thanks alot bitch.

I'll save whatever fun I had for next time I blog cos if I do it now, its gonna be full of hatred and everything else.

Emaths tmr, I have a feeling I'm gonna piss everyone off.

2007-05-24T21:15:00.000+08:00

One word to describe today, Emo. I've been in such a foul mood lately and that's just the worst, esp now. Sorry Su and Yeewen for being so quiet today. I just had no energy to talk to anyone.

LD surprisingly cheered me up today. Was rather fun today(: but I was having a real bad headache. Finished much later than expected and I realised I was late so rushed home.

Quickly got readyyyyyyyy, and then went to Tiong.

Ok im lazy to elaborate. GTG byeeeeeee

2007-05-23T16:52:00.000+08:00

I'm so angsty today. I don't liike D:< Been so preoccupied lately and emo. Nothing ever seems to bring a smile to my face anymore.

I dont know whether to go temple today. The mood's just not there anymore. And so many people not going. ): HELP ME!

2007-05-22T15:52:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SULASTRI RYANTI!
you know I love you many many.

So today is my Baby's bday, &I was rather mean to her xD Sorry! But it's just too fun(: Anyways, Sulastri has always been there for me. And when I say always, I mean it. She knows me like no one else does and I don't know what I would do without her. So by, enjoy this day and remember that ILoveYou.
Oh and please dont make fun of me anymore. I know I was a dumb kid. (:

Ok, carrying on. TODAY IS THE WORST DAY EVER
ok no its not, but it sucked. urghhh, im so so so so pissed.
#1 I have been emo since last night, so today also
#2 There was mass run
#3 My tablet went missing
#4 I wanted to cry
#5 Walked around school looking for my tablet
#6 Got lectured by Mr M cos he was the one who took it
#7 DianaT decided to be bitchy. I didn't hand in my homework cos I was absent, but yet she made me stand for like a whole period. And I was damnit sleepy
#8 I got nowhere to go
#9 I've got a secret admirer
#10 I dont know already

IVE GOT A HEADACHEEEE
Should I sleep? I've got nothing to do anyway.

To make a mountain of your life
is just a choice

2007-05-20T20:34:00.000+08:00

My cable is spoilt ):
I'm depressedddddd. damnit i havent studied for tmr! omg stress stress stress stress stress!

I spent the whole of today reading, and watching tv. I mean Vcds. Cos my bloody tv is spoil. omg ahnoying.
K anws, watched Shrek2 in the morning. Started watching Canada videos from when I was a kid.
I realised I was clingy then, and im still clingy now. &I hated to be left out as a kid, I hate to be left out now.
I'm still the same. I just grew older.

But I did the cutest things. &the stupidest. Showed how dumb I was. I always copy my sister. I was like "Masi, this cute cute one can?" I was asking my aunt if the strawberries I picked were okay. and there was once I said "I'm gonna jump down" in those eerie evil sneaky mischievious(sp?!) voices. It was damn funny. I cldnt stop laughing when I saw that.
I'm still the same(:

2007-05-19T21:58:00.000+08:00

forgive me for wanting to go out with you. I didn't know it would be such a trouble.

I'm damnit stressed and no one has noticed.
Don't you ever wonder why ive been so restless and in such a bad mood. ive been wanting to go out so i can destress. So I can do well on monday. I want to pass my O's and im fucking scared if I screw up on monday. I really need to take it slow, but i cant. everytime i think about it i tense up.
forgive me.

2007-05-18T14:09:00.000+08:00

Okay I forgot to mention,
Yesterday, May 17, was not what I expected.

Early in the morning I was delighted to realise my fever was gone. I was real sleepy though.
During assembly, there was mass spotcheck for the sec3s. I was damnit scared. I wasn't wearing school socks, I had long nails and my skirt was kinda short. I think. I was so glad the coucillor liked me that day.
After that got back papers.
F9 for Chem. Pro?
The rest were all okay. Quite pleased with myself(: Looks like my hard work paid off. And thankgod I had no distractions this time xD
Had LD after school. Slacked in the canteen.
LD was alright. I don't really like some of the juniors though. Damn ahnoying. ):

2007-05-18T14:01:00.000+08:00

I didn't go to school today.
Mom woke me up and said "Do you want to go to school today?"
And so I lookd at her and said "No"
And the next minute, I fell asleep.

HOW CAN YOU ASK ME WHETHER I WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL IN THE MORNING WHEN I JUST WAKE UP?
I will definitely say no.

Nvm lah, I had a wonderful sleep(: heehee. I'm so piggy, I want to sleep somemore. Well, basically cos I've got nothing to do. HEE(:

I miss you. Ok no wait I dont. Surprising how I don't feel the pinch anymore. That's good I suppose (:

I'm getting really freaked. It's really scary how possessive some people can be. I mean, please dont invite yourself when ure not welcomed. I was nice to you once, and only once. Dont get too comfortable.

Dont believe them when they say;
I'm coming back

2007-05-16T22:47:00.000+08:00

UPDATES!
I passed English! What a relief
But I'm damnit sick. Having fever. I was dying yesterday and today. Thankgod I'm feeling better.
Mr Samat is da best(:

Monday went Jurong, was alright.
Tuesday went to school. Came home watched Pirates of the Caribbean 2.
Today went temple.

I'm tired, and since my sister is making so much noise. I shall be a nice person and let her use the tablet(:

2007-05-13T14:11:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time,

Watched Spiderman3 already. Gonna watch it again though.
Cafe Del Mar is pretty beyond pretty.
War is scary.
&Ive got issues.

Thanks for the talk last night, really felt like old times.